I Am Grateful

I have been planning the organization of the Area Speech & Evaluation Contest for our Toastmasters club, we were the host club for this event. There were several things I didn't do as well as I could have, being my first time I just didn't know it all. Pat helped out a lot. She also panicked about things that I was doing in my way that she thought should be done a different way. For example, I hadn't been able to find a pair of scissors, so was just tearing paper on the table edge for people to put their names on for the door prize draw. Also, I had taken a cash box but hadn't thought to put in a float for making change for people. I thought the papers looked rather nice, like many people would use pinking sheers to make, the torn edge look was good. She ran to get scissors from across the road, and to the bank to take out money then to a store to get the $20 changed into smaller, for a float. In that time, I took $11 out of my purse ($5 bill, 2 $2 coins, 2 $1 coins) and as it worked out, there was no need even for that as everyone had the right change, then as a few didn't, there was already plenty in the cash box. Also, I hadn't gotten cream for the tea and as my back went out just as I was about to do so, I asked Karissa to go to the store for me, and she did so. So, I think Pat's a bit upset with me for not doing my job, and I think that largely my job was to designate others to do things. Yes, I think I could have done better, and there are things I would do differently if I did something like this again. After all, it's all about learning. Today, Sheila, the Area Governor, sent out a thank you email to everyone for the work they'd done for last night... my name was not mentioned in that email. Pat was thanked for all the work she (and I) had done. I was to be evaluated for this job as a project in my Competent Leadership manual. I am getting the feeling like it will not be a good evaluation, and maybe not even an honest one. However, there is something good... one of the other ladies from the club who was there as a judge, did send me a very nice email earlier in the day... "Good job on organizing and overseeing that contest last night, Alice. Great turnout, and everything seemed to flow smoothly, although we must all be thankful for Sheila's experience and guidance. Thanks for all you do in our club, Anna"

My low back had started to cause me pain and a challenge walking on Thursday afternoon, it only got worse yesterday, then at the Speech Contest, when I turned and went to walk, I felt a snap-like feeling in my low back with a big shot of pain. I had to sit a lot for the rest of the evening, limp around as best I could when I had to go somewhere. Not pleasant, not good timing for this to happen. When I got home I used some of my 'mega' pain meds that I only use if I have to, then off to bed. Most of today was spent there too.

As I was leaving for the contest yesterday, I checked my blood sugar levels and found them to be very low, 3.6, and that is dangerous. I was at the store across the lake from my home, had bought some stuff for the contest as well as a loaf of bread and 2 wieners for home. As I drove, I ate the 2 wieners and 1 slice of the bread. Then at the contest, there were cookies and cupcakes, I ate 2 cookies and 3 cupcakes. This is not good as I'm trying to loose weight, and though I needed to bring the blood sugars up it was not a healthy way to do so. Diet and exercise are the best way to loose weight in my opinion, even better than the best diet pill, though I am not doing well with either the diet or the exercise. I have to start doing much better for the importance of my health. I am not happy with myself, and know I must forgive me and move on, doing better next time. My blood sugar levels are good today.

Today I kinda wanted to go out and do some work in the yard, and do some work in the house, and my back is feeling better than it did last night, by far, yet it is still not good and I was a bit scared to do anything for fear of agrivating it more. So, I guess I let fear control me as I did nothing except sit in my arm chair doing things on the computer, hugging my cat and watching TV... and laying in bed reading, sleeping, hugging the cat. Mewsic had a great day, lol. Last night I started to write todays Wordzlle challenge, got part of it done, then had to leave it. Today I worked at it off and on until it was finally finished. Between the writer's blocks, the back issue, and such like that, it was late being posted. That's okay, the main thing for me is that I completed it. Thom was very kind and wrote me a very nice comment.

I turned off the pellet stove this morning, and havn't turned it back on as to do so would mean going out and opening up a new ton of pellets, carrying in a 40# bag of them, and I don't feel up to doing that today. It chilly in here, but not all that uncomfortable yet. The furnace will kick in during the night.

- I am grateful for the good turn out at the Speech Contest
- I am grateful for the things I learned from doing the co-ordination of the Speech contest, and for knowing ways to improve if I do another in future.
- I am grateful for the note from Anna.
- I am grateful for good blood sugar levels today.
- I am grateful for opportunities to grow.
- I am grateful for the warm sunny day today, even though I was inside all day.
- I am grateful I got my Wordzlle up today.
- I am grateful for the wonderful comment Thom left on my Wordzlle post.
- I am grateful for the furnace. Though I don't like using it, it's good to have when I need it.
- I am grateful the weather is warm enough for me to not need heat 24 hours a day.
- I am grateful that Mewsic is so cuddly and lovable (wish I had a man like that, haha)
- I am grateful my back is much improved now.
- I am grateful for the wonderful Wordzlle and Three Word Thursday stories that others have written. I enjoy going and reading them, though with so many new writers coming on now, it's getting to be more of a challenge to get to all.
- I am grateful for all those that visit my blog and leave me comments.

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