Due to deep depression and pain from Fibromyalgia, I years ago pretty much stopped doing my house work. The dirt piled up right along with all the clutter and the 'things'. At that point, I didn't care. Well, maybe on some level, but lets put it this way, I didn't care enough to do anything about it. Since then, thanks to meds from the doctor I got a lot better, then thanks to the Okanagan Centre for Spiritual Living and books I've read, courses I've taken, I got even better and better. I once again have become the happy person I was in my younger years, though definitely not as nieve as I was back then. Yet, still I have been unable to get the house back under control. I would make some progress, then fall back down again. It has bothered me, but I guess not enough to do anything about it. Even without the depression, there is still the pain, and even more of that now with other problems having shown up in my back. However, with the new flooring being put into the house, I've somehow been given a new desire to make my home nice again. As I have to move things for the flooring to be put down, I am cleaning and sorting. I took 5 bags of recycling down the hill to be picked up last Wednesday, and have another one ready to go. By the time the 2 weeks has passed and I have to put it out again, I may well have another 5 bags to go. I also have been piling up bags of garbage out in the carport, ready to go to the dump. I will load those into the truck on Monday so I can take them to the dump on Tuesday on the way to visit Mom. There is a LOT of work to do yet, lots to sort and give away/recycle/throw away, and it feels very good to be doing this.
I am grateful I have recovered my health and happiness.
I am grateful I am again wanting to clean my home.
I am grateful I am again doing the cleaning here.
I am grateful for all I accomplished here today.
I am grateful that with every passing day, my home becomes cleaner and tidier, therefor healthier for me, mentally & physically.
I am grateful I will soon be proud to have visiters here again... let go of the embarrassment.
I am grateful I can share this 'stuff' with you, and know it's safe to do so.
2 comments:
YAY, this is good news!
Some of what kept you from cleaning was depression. Now that you once again have a home you can feel proud of, it has broken your depression.
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