My Writing Group

Here is another bit of writing I recently did for the online writers group I belong to. As you will soon see, I was in a down 'head space' that day. I am grateful that I manage to keep myself 'up' most of the time. Writing this helped me to get it out where I could look at it and get myself back on the 'right track'. The writing prompt is in blue italics.


What is it you dream about?

I am and have always been a dreamer. I have dreamed of so many things over the years, it's a bit ridiculous. The two longest going dreams started when I was a little girl, and I still dream about them. One more than the other, I must admit, as the one has never stopped where the other one has had some breaks in the dreaming. So what are they? 1- A man that loves me, you know, the old soul mate thing. I never seem to be able to stop that stupid dream. What a lot of hours have stacked up with that never ending dream that never comes true. 2- My own ranch. I even downsized that to a farm. Oh well, at least I do own my home and I can have some chickens here. Not what I always dreamed of, but better than a rented apartment. Part of the ranch/farm dream has always been to have horses. I had my own as a kid and I've had horses to ride a good part of my adulthood, and I so much miss them now that I have none in my life.

Lately I've even dreamed of having enough flat land to be able to have people in RVs rent little spots of it from me. Lots of people are now living year round in their RVs, and I know that it would be fairly easy to get people to move onto my place. Charge a few dollars less a month than the ones that also cater to tourists and the year-rounders would flock in. And it's just another dream that will never come true because it takes money to make something like that happen. Money and energy... two things I have issues around.

Also, with having recently taken a course on attracting your soul mate, and Valentines coming up, the dream of meeting 'him' is heavy on me again. I had nearly given it up, and now.... I had some very exciting 'starts' that fizzled out and left me with a heavy heart... doubting that it will ever happen... kicking myself for being stupid enough to put myself 'here' again. As I write this to you, I have just realized that it is 'resistance'

, yup, good old resistance coming up. Wow, so maybe I'm really, really close to meeting 'him', or this resistance wouldn't be showing its ugly face. Thank you for this prompt, Annette. It was just what I needed to help me see. Now I have to go do some Spiritual Mind Treatments (specific form of positive prayers) to get rid of the doubt, and accept the demonstration of my 'perfect man', my soul mate.

Namaste
Alice